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Stuck in a rut! 2 weeks and no weight loss. I can’t say I don’t know why. A slice of cake here, a little extra on the plate there and my best intentions start to slide.

Thankfully, I’ve ditched the whole “throw out the baby with the bathwater” thing. I no longer go bananas after a slip-up. I know it’s a slow road to weight loss and healthy living. 

Meals are smaller and more frequent.  Taming my need to eat out of boredom is the biggest obstacle I have to overcome.  I know I can get out of the house and move instead - but to be quite honest, sometimes I don’t want to. I’d rather sit and read. Or crochet - can’t really eat with yarn and hook in hand. And yes, I’ve tried. I’m not proud of it, but at least I’m being truthful. lol

I hate exercising. Never liked it. Anyone else? Once I get to the gym I’m alright, but it’s a struggle for me to get there. I always find a reason not to go. Or I make a reason. Stay up late reading and take a nap in the am instead of going. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. Not too many years ago I went 5 days a week. Sometimes twice a day. I don’t know what’s changed. Except for my motivation. I got fast results, even the gym employees noticed.

Pain is a factor too I suppose.  I got this ridiculous ankle problem. Tarsal tunnel syndrome. I would’ve laughed in the past if anyone told me about it before. Happens when your arches fall and your feet go flat. Numbness, pain - all that jazz.  I’m afraid if I go back to working out consistently that it’ll flare up again.  I’ve never had pain that debilitating before. Not even natural childbirth. Excuse? Maybe.

For now, one thing at a time. Get this silly eating thing under control. Then tackle the exercise angle. Walking the dog is gonna have to do for now. I walk her in the am every day. Tired or not. I even ran a little today. I won’t lie - got a little (okay a lot) short of breath.

Here’s to a great day for all. Positive thoughts everyone.

Still going at it. Chugging along, but running out of steam. What is it about wieght loss that saps the strength out of me? 

I’ve been in the habit of giving up when I just start seeing results. I fall back into old patterns that never worked thinking that this time my metabolism will snap back. In my head, I shouldn’t have to work this hard. I never had to before, so maybe if I just ignore my weight gain it won’t be real.

Obesity is such a disease of denial. Even when you realize what you’re doing, you can’t always stop yourself. I’ve caught myself mid-bite and thought “what the heck am I doing?” Only to reply, “oh well you’ve already messed up, might as well enjoy yourself and start over next week.”  I don’t do that in any other part of my life. I wouldn’t total my car after just making a dent on the fender. Yet on many a day I’ve thrown all I’ve accomplished out the window after just one slip-up.  I seem to be letting myself fall down that rabbit hole again. 

Well, I’m off to the gym.  Hopefully some of those endorphins will kick in and kick my keister into gear.  Or at least help get me out of these doldrums..

Good luck to everyone.  Sending out good thoughts.