lolaislosingit

Oh boy. I’ve been hiding from the scale. I’ve put off going to WW until today. Why? Because I’ve gone plum loco that’s why. Eating like I’ve been told that I have to eat to save my life.

So, maybe not that bad. But I feel like it and that’s just as bad isn’t it? I’ve gone OP. I’d been doing so well. Why?

I’m pretty sure I know why - I just don’t want to admit it to myself. I don’t even think I can write it down right now. I’ll get there though, to a place where I can confront my demons.

I’m gonna start by weighing in today. No matter what, I’m going to face up to how I’ve been eating and not exercising as much as I should be.

OK. So it’s 5:19pm now and I haven’t weighed in yet. I went there at 4:15 knowing I couldn’t stay for the meeting. I waited in my car until 4:30 and the sign still said closed. The meeting was supposed to start at 4:45, so I got out of my car to go  in but no one was there. I was tight on time so I left.

 I know if I really wanted to get weighed in I should’ve stayed, but jiu-jitsu starts at 6:30 and we can’t eat after 5:15 if we don’t want to yak in class. Gross I know, (TMI also) but maybe you can understand why I needed to go home and finish dinner. I didn’t get weighed in, but my punishment will be to suffer through 1 1/2 hours of jiu-jitsu. If anyone has ever taken a class or knows what it is, they’re sure to understand the suffering I’m gonna go through. So while I may not have weighed in, I’m still gonna drag my sorry self to the dojo and go get beat up, thrown around and sat on.

Tomorrow 7 am weigh-in for sure.

I hope.